February was a tough month. It just felt like wave after wave of grief was coming my way, and I had no time to come up for air.
Early on in the month we lost my young cousin in a freak accident. Shock waves radiated through the family and we all had trouble consoling one another. Not long after that, my sister in law suffered a miscarriage – to see her distraught expression just broke my heart each time.
Then my mum fell ill and had to be rushed to hospital. She was there for over a week and it was a crazy rush of school rounds and hospital rounds and preparing special food for her and making sure my father was okay and then taking extra care of her once she got discharged. We were just catching our breath, when a gastric flu came knocking at our door – starting with my husband and then each child in systematic order until it felt like I was running an infirmary here!
By the end of the month, I was running on reserve fuel. I was at the end my wits, both mentally and physically. My husband knew that I needed a break and so last weekend, he sent all three kids to my mother in law – I got some well deserved peace and rest.
The thing is, as my husband explained to me, that we humans run around trying to do so many things but we forget the most important thing – it is Allah who does! Subhan Allah. We forget that the first thing we should do is it turn to Him. We are so busy asking from our family members and friends and doctors, but did we even stop to ask from Allah Ta’ala? Sit down on the musallah, cry and beg from Him, talk to Him…He is waiting to here from us.
Alhumdulillah, with Allah’s help we got through everything. Sometimes Allah tests us to bring us closer to Him and if we use the calamity to gain His closeness then it is indeed a blessing. We all have to return to our Maker one day – let us use every opportunity to gain His pleasure and draw from his treasures. When things go wrong, turn to Him first. And when things are going smoothly, praise Him first. He is waiting… Just raise your hands and He will never disappoint you…
Mummy Muslimah 